Knowing how important likes and views are on social media, and how many people pretend or rehash others’ experiences as if they were their own, I see a larger issue at play. In light of this, I am choosing to share my experience on this platform.

The voices of those who have experienced an actual Kundalini awakening—and those who release energy through modalities such as Kundalini Activation Process (KAP) or spinal energetics—outweigh those who simply rehash ideas or encourage illusory awakenings. I am aware that, in saying this, I may be breaking a so-called mystic rule of allowing everyone their own experience. Still, I see a genuine need for more clarity in what has become a Kundalini jungle, even if that means sharing something deeply personal, such as my spiritual path, online.

There is no way to truly prepare for a Kundalini awakening, nor can your Kundalini be activated by someone else. Kundalini activations and spinal energetics may be effective marketing tools, and they can certainly help the system release energy. At best, Kundalini activations are a way to release energy—but they are not Kundalini awakenings. Those who claim to be against the trend yet cannot speak from personal experience, and those who believe they facilitate awakenings, cannot possibly have experienced a true Kundalini awakening. If they had, they would never, in their lifetime, want to facilitate such a process in a group setting.

The step-by-step “preparations” some people speak of—those who claim to understand true awakening—are not something you can actually prepare for. You absolutely cannot. Those who know will smile at this sentence.

You know why?

My Kundalini erupted when I was 23. You do not want to live this experience on a mat, in a space with people you don’t know or recognize. It has been the most forceful, frightening, and difficult experience of my life. It humbled me to my core and brought me into full surrender of self. In retrospect, it required a very specific amount of time, with signs gradually becoming visible to those around me who understood what was happening. Luckily, I was seen.

Knowing versus the Way

The beautiful beginning—where love completely consumes you—never fades. Animals began to approach and surround me wherever I went. Children flocked to me, wanting to play. Even waterbirds would come out of the water in groups, sitting with, on, and around me. This was nature’s intelligence revealed in abundance—something I had known intellectually, but never experienced. It was nature showing proof of the force that moves through all things, on every level. You are here. You have arrived. You live the interconnectedness. This was my experience when I fully surrendered.

Experience

My husband saw and understood what was happening, as did my yoga teacher at the time and a few close friends. Without the support of those who had experienced this before me, I would not only have lost my entire sense of self and unity, surrendered fully within weeks, and taken over a year to integrate—I would have been locked in a psychiatric ward for years. I was terrified of the force that tore my life apart and moved through my body. Without the support of my husband, his teachers, and my own teachers—those who had lived this experience—I was able to go through this initiation safely and freely, even though it was unwanted at the time.

I was not looking for it. I was not happy to be in the eye of this experience for weeks on end, nor did I expect it to be this extreme when the rising erupted.

Me

I was in no way focused on anything related to Kundalini, and you can never prepare for the force you will encounter when it awakens.

So, to those claiming to be either for or against Kundalini activations: I invite you to prepare—not for yourself, but for when a true Kundalini awakening happens to someone close to you. Because your preparation will be the only thing that matters in that moment.

Everything that brought me into such deep connection with myself, with life, and with everything I knew to be true about love came together in the years leading up to this point—and has only deepened since. I am grateful to have experienced this. I believe that being informed by lived experience—of which I have shared only about 10% here—can help others stay out of confusion. Even if this helps just one person who needs it now, I am willing to break the mystic code.

Kundalini awakening is nothing to play with. And yet, I admit, I almost grimly marvel at the thought of these activations taking place and some poor soul’s Kundalini actually awakening on the spot.

That’s just me.